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July 30, 2026

⋆。°✩ Expectations vs Reality

Some tasks are best with certain devices, I swear. Pinterest sounds like it's best on a laptop, yknow laying on your stomach on a bed, but it's actually best on a phone! I've tried a multitude of "lounging "activities laying on my stomach, and it looks awesome but the pain in my elbows, shoulders, back, and neck comes so quick! And with the way current pinterest is, the swiftness of pinterest mobile, laying on your back, or your side, or on your stomach if that's what works for you (i'm soooo jealous!!) is just a much smoother experience.

See, I started this because I was going to say that blogging would probably be a lot better on a laptop, as opposed to my current desktop setup and uncomfy chair. And I just went on a tangent sorta complaining about laying on my stomach. But.... I do still think lounging on my bed, laying on my stomach, would still be a more... aesthetic and romanticized pose to blog in!

⋆。°✩ fridge

​I know I'm getting older when the concept of having my own refrigerator makes me excited, despite being no where near achieving it 

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Ongoing Movie Rating List!

 It's come to my attention that the average person may possibly wonder "dang does this person like anything?" after seeing any of my movie reviews I've posted anywhere. And I'm here to say that yes, I do like things! I do like movies! There are movies out there that I LOVE in fact!!!

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July 29, 2026

⋆。°✩ Ughhh

My mom is like being so annoying lately I swear. 

The other day she told us to make a grocery list right, and so I did. When I handed it to her, she was like "oh I know you're gonna be extra" and proceeded to tell me that what I asked for was too much. I only asked for a few frozen dinner meals I'd like to try and a few fruits.

This past week and a half, I haven't really had anything to eat. So I've been waiting for her to go grocery shopping. Yesterday, she did some shopping. Told me "i only got you the fruits, we don't have space in the freezer for extra stuff" AS i was looking at the half empty freezer. "All that pricing adds up" and I only asked for a few things, and I made sure they were the cheapest options.

⋆。°✩ Baked!

So i've never been much of one who cooks or bakes, or anything like that. I'm not too good at it. But today i decided to make some stuff!

First is some sort of... strawberry drink? I'm not really sure. 

Basically, I just threw strawberries, sugar and milk together. I diced up some strawberries, threw them in a bowl of sugar and heavy whipping cream, mixed them, microwaved for about 30 seconds, and put them together with some lactose free milk.

It honestly tasted decently! I've been sipping on this all throughout the day, and adding more milk to it every now and then.
I also made some cookies! It came from the roll thingy, so it's not like actual homemade. But they're still good! I made these a few weeks ago and I loved them, and I'm not usually a fan of chocolate cookies. 

When I made them, before, I got the sizing perfectly! But this time, I swear the tube had more cookie dough than before? So I had to add a fifth row of dough, and so it ended up makin them all melt and cook together... So now we just have square cookies! I can't wait to eat them later today.

July 27, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Good Burger (1997)

Good Burger (1997)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: comedy

4 / 5 ★★★★☆

Black Spongebob in his patty-wagon I love you.

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. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Evil Dead Rise (2023)

Evil Dead Rise (2023)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: horror, thriller

3 / 5 ★★★☆☆

Y'know I'll be surprised if all that extreme stress doesn't cause a miscarriage.

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⋆。°✩ Ready or Not?

​I feel like a lot of my recent days has been full of longing and anticipation for the future. A near impatience for my next life chapter to start. Waiting for it to come. Like I'm "ready" for news things. But  I know that I'm not FULLY ready, as they are big things I want. l applied for like 20 new positions at Walmart. I don't really want to work, no-one actually wants to have to work, but I want to hurry up and land myself the position to start making my own money.


I want to be able to buy myself things. I want to have opportunities. I want a car to drive myself to places I wanna be, when I want. I want my own first apartment, want to have and own my own space. I'm longing for the oppurtunities of the future, stuck waiting for my application, any of them, to finally, be accepted. I love living in my room, but I know obviously I can't just spend the rest of my time here. I need something new for myself. I want something new for myself.

July 25, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Alien: Romulus (2024)

Alien: Romulus (2024)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: science fiction, horror

2 / 5 ★★☆☆☆

Baby needs milkies.

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July 24, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Frankenhooker (1990)

Frankenhooker (1990)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: comedy, science fiction, horror

4 / 5 ★★★★☆

Girl you are smoking hot!!! You're killing it!!! Mindblowing!!!! Drop dead gorgeous!!!!

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. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: White Chicks (2004)

White Chicks (2004)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: comedy, crime
4.5 / 5 ★★★★⯪
" She don't know it yet, but that's wifey right there! " 

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July 22, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: The Black Phone (2021)

The Black Phone (2021)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: thriller, horror

2 / 5 ★★☆☆☆

I didn't know a Nameless Ghoul went around kidnapping bad child actors so they could play out a puzzle horror game.

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July 21, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Death Proof (2007)

Death Proof (2007)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: thriller, action

4 / 5 ★★★★☆
" I'm gonna bust a NUT up in this bitch right now! Oh, I'm the horniest motherfucker on the road! "
A kinda trashy turns good-for-her horror, with an "old film" vibe, audio cuts and static jumps, that I loved. So bad it's good. Stuntman Mike was also kinda hot until he started whining about his arms. 
" Some kinda-cute-kinda-hot-kinda-sexy-hysterically-funny-but-not-funny-looking-guy who you COULD fuck."

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. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Pearl (2022)

Pearl (2022)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: horror, drama, thriller

5 / 5 ★★★★★
" The whole world's gonna know my name... " 
Starting off strong with a beautiful opening sequence, I went into this movie hyped (surprisingly so, considering X hadn't really done it for me) and this movie did not disappoint in the slightest. 
" I don't want to end up like you, is all... " 
There's a reflection of disdain for the life you've ended up seemingly trapped in bounced between both mother and daughter. A mirror held up in which the mother's bottled up rage, even in all the efforts of refusal, is reflected back within the daughter. A reluctant acceptance that maybe, whether its actually true or not, this is the life for you. And the question of why? And worse, the lack of a true answer. 

Going into the movie, I already had some semblance of what happens. And yet that still did nothing to ease the sense of dread building up at certain moments, even if I knew what was going to come. If anything, the knowing only made those feelings grow stronger. Which I absolutely love, it takes something real good for it to weigh so heavily. 

I can see how Pearl's dance immediately lands itself in "Best movie dance sequences of all time." Even if the murdering wasn't something that happened, I still would have rooted for Pearl to get that casting. It was beautiful!

And of course, Pearl's near 10 minute long monologue was soul crushing. It tore my heart to pieces and threw them back at my face. Such raw, nasty, heartfelt confessions hitting all too close to home. Pent up rage, hate, jealousy, desperation. Brought tears to my eyes. No cuts within the majority of the monologue, uncomfortable and yet all the same necessary and relatable. 
" It's not about what I want anymore... "

" It's about making the best of what I have... "  

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July 17, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: The Phantom of the Opera (2004)

The Phantom of the Opera (2004)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: drama, romance, thriller

5 / 5 ★★★★★

I'm aware that Christine obviously should've chosen Raul and The Phantom was not the guy to go for, but I fear I would go to him anyway idc. Rules for thee, not for me.

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July 16, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Clueless (1995)

Clueless (1995)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: comedy, romance

4.5 / 5 ★★★★⯪

So iconic, I literally forget about the borderline incest upon every millionth rewatch. Half-incest, half not? An ex-stepbrother from years ago, who still hangs around rarely. Mm, a bit much, for me at least. It would be a 5 stars if that wasn't included, it's otherwise an amazing movie despite my always forgetting the last third until it hits me in the face.

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July 15, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Heathers (1989)

Heathers (1989)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: comedy, crime

4 / 5 ★★★★☆

Rewatched this one with friends who had never seen it before, a personal classic of mine, and they had fun too!

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July 13, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Romeo + Juliet (1996)

Romeo + Juliet (1996)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: romance, drama

5 / 5 ★★★★★

I too would choose young Leonardo DiCaprio if he spit literature like this to me girl I get you.

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. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Tamara (2005)

 Tamara (2005)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: thriller, horror

3 / 5 ★★★☆☆

The ending was a bit underwhelming, but overall it was decent enough. Revenge witch horror is always fun.

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July 12, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Sweet Movie (1974)

Sweet Movie (1974)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: comedy

0.5 / 5 ⯪☆☆☆☆

Stopped watching about 50 minutes in when the people in charge of this movie decided it was a good idea to have a woman strip naked and rub herself and literal children. I don't care about whatever "statements" this movie has to make about anything, I'm not sitting though a half-naked woman rub on kids and unbutton a kid's pants. Absolutely disgusting.

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July 10, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Starship Troopers (1997)

Starship Troopers (1997)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: adventure, thriller, action, science fiction

3 / 5 ★★★☆☆

Carmen is always showing teeth, it's like the directors told her she can't ever close her mouth during filming the first half of the movie. 3 frontflips. 1 girls going after a guy in a relationship, 1 girl is leaving her relationship for the guy she said not to worry about. I liked the "news" segments, those were fun. the music during the argument/fight scene was so out of place, I swore I was imagining it for a second. surprisingly gorey. I can appreciate though it's meaning, beyond the amusing cgi and drama.

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July 9, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Antiporno (2016)

Antiporno (2016)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: drama, mystery, pornographic

2 / 5 ★★☆☆☆

" To celebrate the 45th anniversary of its iconic roman porno (romantic pornography) era, Japan's Nikkatsu Studio launched the "Roman Porno Reboot" project. The original cycle began in November 1971 as a survival tactic for the studio, tasking directors with creating low-budget feature films that strictly required a sex scene every 10 minutes. "

Antiporno is the 2nd of 5 movies, by 5 directors tasked with the reboot project.

This movie is described as "she constantly questions the rationale of sex and the notion of liberty in modern Japanese society." Though it's rather surface level stuff, as it is blaringly obvious this was directed by a man, who would have guessed. 

It seems like the extent this movie reaches is simply "I have a complicated relationship with sex because my parents are hypocrites and I'm still coping with the loss of my sister."

As well as the very lukewarm:
" No Woman in this nation can master freedom. " 
As mentioned before, Antiporno is the 2nd in this "Roman Porno Reboot" project" and uhhh it definitely shows. Starting strong 6 mins in with a sex scene, 15 mins for a freaky petplay knee-licking scene (excessive moaning of course). 23 mins in and there's a "rape" scene, in which in just these minutes so far we have 2 toilet/puke scenes. 37 mins in is another sex scene, 50 mins is another woman-on-woman scene. 59 mins in is a "sex" (read: grinding) scene. 1 hour and 1 min is is a parent sex scene, then of course 10 mins later is another.

It's just made increasingly more clear as the movie goes on that in its goal to explore sexual identity and how personal and complicated it can be for women, it just falls rather flat as the man directing this movie just has... zero clue what it's like. 

It's just... not that great and not as deep of a think-piece as it clearly wants to be.

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July 8, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Jawbreaker (1999)

Jawbreaker (1999)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: comedy, thriller, crime

3.5 / 5 ★★★⯪☆
" Learn it. Live it. Love it. "
This was like if Heathers and Clueless had a lovechild.

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July 7, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Warfare (2025)

Warfare (2025)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: action, war

1 / 5 ★☆☆☆☆

So boring.

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July 5, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Sinners (2025)

Sinners (2025)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: thriller, action, horror

5 / 5 ★★★★★

Top tier, phenomenonal movie. The music juke joint scene was even better on a rewatch.

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July 4, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Backrooms (2026)

Backrooms (2026)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: mystery, science fiction, horror

3.5 / 5 ★★★⯪☆

Does Renate know how to make more than 1 facial expression? Other than that, it was good. Not so much focusing on "The Backrooms" as it was, but using it as a metaphor for what could be understood as dementia, as well as inward battles of the self. Acknowledging wrongs, and either changing or not. You are the monster sometimes. And depending on how you go forward, you can be your own undoing.

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July 1, 2026

. ݁₊⊹.πŸ“½ Movie Review: Obsession (2026)

Obsession (2026)

˖ ࣪⊹๋࣭ ⭑ Genre: thriller, horror

5 / 5 ★★★★★
" A love only the branch of a Willow Tree could conjure... "
" I'll be anything you want me to be... "
What a phenomenal movie, honestly.

First 20 minutes of the movie, and Bear already got me fucked up. This whole movie was him failing, or more intentionally not communicating properly when he knows there's opportunity to do so. Calling her "freaky Nikki" after acknowledging that was a nickname she did not like.

He makes constant decisions knowing the consequences will be bad, and then acts surprised when those bad things happen.

I think the crystal necklace falling down the drain, and the tiger's eye being given to Bear was a very nice touch, foreshadowing how Nikki's two forms of protection against herself have been lost and opens up room for her to be manipulated.

This poor girl is having an out-of-body experience this whole movie because Bear was the one to make a stupid decision and wish her whole life away, using the item he bought with the intention to gift to her. He was too scared to meet her halfway, after she asked upfront whether he liked her. He chose to lie, he chose to use up the item meant for her, and he chose to make a selfish wish without a care of what she would want.
" I don't think I could live without you... "
I found the lack of positive, or even any kind of emotional, expressions on Nikki's face during a moment that would be called intimacy for any other couple was also a very nice detail to include. It really speaks to how Not-Nikki she was the whole time during the relationship.

I had thought beforehand that Ian was somewhat valid in saying that from his POV, it looks like Nikki needed help and Bear was taking advantage of her. And while that still was somewhat true from the outsiders' POV, he was also revealed to be a pretty shitty friend if the FWB thing with Nikki while he knew Bear liked her was true.

I do think that the drinking game did not need to turn out how it did. And not because "it was Nikki's fault" but because bear could have chosen to drink instead of entertaining the "kiss the person on your left prompt."

The whole movie, I think the most accurate way to describe bear was that he was being a major selfish pussy. He couldn't be honest, and most importantly he could not take Nikki's pleas to heart. Not even while she was laying there, finally as herself, begging and pleading to be let go of and put out of her misery.

Bear continues to say that Nikki's dad is dying, which he knows isn't true, just so that everyone else could stop saying there's a bad vibe about their sudden relationship. Just so that the truth does not come out.
" This is all your fault; Sarah is your fault. You wanted this, you wished for this. " 
True!!! Bear wished for all of this, and is upset that he got The Yandere Experience.

Even in the very end. Making Ian wish that HE never made a wish. Not wishing that Nikki was normal again. The wish he waned was about HIM. He overdosed so that HE wouldn't have to deal with the rest of the consequences. 

I feel so bad for Nikki, becoming a twisted shell of who she used to be just because of this stupid man. And then being left the only one alive over a situation that was not HER fault in the slightest. 

Her actor did an amazing job at snapping between crazy attached and apologetic sweet, as well as panicked realization.

The ending was perfect, I couldn't think up a better ending (other than maybe Bear needing to live and face his selfishness fully, but I understand and am not mad at all that his life ended the way it did. It really fits his character.)

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